I bet you guys are wondering about my month-long silence here in my beloved online journal, and I have to apologize for being in a hiatus because (*coughs* get ready for such a lame excuse) I have been busy at work, and I'm still adjusting with my new environment and schedule and as much as I want to write about so many things right now, I just can't find the time to do so. I really really really promise that once I get back on my senses (hopefully, sooner), I'm going to manage my time and get back to regular blogging because seriously, I miss sharing stuff to you guys.

3. I believe that living life half-assed is not living your life at all, if you feel like trying out something then go for it.

4. I might not know where my decisions may lead me, but I know there are lessons to learn afterwards.

5. These lessons are going to build me up as a better person and are going to make me wiser.

Is it just me, or does being a new kid give you that nervous and stomach-churning feeling during the first day or maybe week? When I was still studying, I've been in 6 different schools and I never got used to that awful feeling of being the new kid - it's like I'm always starting back from scratch and I'd actually have to repeat the same adjustment routine and interact with new people. I'm not anti-social nor an introvert, but maybe because I know that being in a new environment entails having to cope with a new set of strangers people and it feels like everything that I do may be a mistake and it feels like (in my peripheral vision) all eyes are on me and they are trying to decipher what kind of human being I am. 

This Monday, I'll be starting my job as a Promotions Graphic Assistant for a big telecommunication network and I'm in panic mode for a couple of days now because I don't know what's in store for me aside from doing my job description. So many questions are going through my head during the first few days/weeks of being a new kid, some are stupid but  are fairly reasonable:

1. "Am I the only new person around here?" - Seriously, who doesn't want to know the other newbies around? There's always this satisfying feeling about knowing that you're not alone in this journey to adjustment.

2. "Should I start introducing myself to them? Or should I just let them know who I am?" - I know there's nothing wrong with self introduction, but just the feeling of not knowing whether they care about who the hell you are sucks. It's either you'd look like someone feeling close to strangers or if you don't introduce yourself at all, you'd look like a total snob. Which leads to the next question..

3. "Should I just shut up?" - Because there's this always unending feeling that every time you talk and people around you knows that you're still a total stranger, you sometimes think that you've done so much talking and you need to keep quiet.

4. "When all else fails, where is the best hiding spot?" - You're scared to make mistakes at first, and when you commit one you think that it's such an embarrassment and you feel like you want to hide forever or stay at the back so that no one will notice you anymore. It's like being punished be the pre-school teacher and she lets you stand in the corner, facing the wall. 

5. "How long will it take me to get used to this place and these people?" - Of course, you just want to end this journey and start feeling like you already belong in this place. Dude, trust me - once you've stepped foot in this place you know that you'll be a part of the mix, you just have to know how to find the balance when it comes to interaction among the people around you. 

But hey, I managed to survive and make great friends and acquaintances after so many years, right? There's nothing wrong in being a new kid, actually it's fun being one because just the feeling of meeting new people is exciting. First day jitters are all normal, and once you get through your first month, you'll soon realize that you've made a lot of friends and progress. I'm honestly excited to start working on Monday and meet my new colleagues!!

I never realized that graduating from college would be, by far, the best yet, the hardest thing that has happened during the course of my adult life. Finding a career, finding a company, marketing yourself to employers and weighing pros and cons are hard. I graduated from a prestigious university here in the Philippines with a degree that I love, but stepping out from the 4 corners of the university made me realize how vast and how strong the competition is among my fellow fresh graduates who took up the same degree that I acquired.

Getting a job is hard - I've applied to various advertising, marketing, events and PR agencies and getting a call from an employer takes time. After so many times of trying, I  got hired.... but the thing is, I was not happy and giddy about it. The salary is fairly high for a fresh graduate like me, but the commitment is too much for me to handle. I was so preoccupied about earning big that I actually forgot to focus on acquiring experience and learning first. 

The quotation above really got me, how much am I willing to give up to get to the path that is meant for me? After talking to my friends, parents and asking for Divine enlightenment from my best bro - Jesus, I have finally come to my senses and decided to give up this thing that I know wouldn't make me happy as a career-woman and as a person. You see, I really don't care if I'm going to start from scratch and wait for other employers to schedule me for an interview. Now, I know that giving it up was worth it because just this afternoon (I'm writing this down on Aug. 7, 2015), I got a call from a big telecommunications company informing me that I got hired as a promotions graphic assistant!! I've been praying to get hired before September strikes, and good Lord Jesus never failed me.

Here's to a new chapter in my life as an adult: paying taxes, staying out of debt, and living an independent life!! Cheers!

July is already nearing to its end, and I have some photo dumps from last month to this month. Can you believe that the 8th month of 2015 is coming? How crazy is that?! Anyway, here are the things that happened to my life in grid:

Watched "Jurassic World" with the bestfriend  - This is the best Jurassic World installment to date! I love how they've incorporated parts of the 1st film to this latest installment of the story.  Plus, Chris Pratt is such a hottie, I can't even but swoon with his heroic acts in the film.

Rainy days, cozy days - I love rainy days and I was so happy that the rainy season started this month! Also, I love how cozy it feels to be wrapped under a blanket and wear a nice pair of socks. 

Hung out with the girlfriends - Last Monday, I hung out with my 2 best girlfriends to catch up after a month long of not seeing each other. We had lunch at Tokyo Cafe (and I'll be doing a blog review soon) and watched Magic Mike XXL.

Lunch at Tokyo Cafe - I never expected that a Japanese restaurant would pull-off Western cuisine! I'm currently doing a blog review so stay tuned!! 

Watched Idina Menzel's concert - (also another blog post to be written) Last month, I watched the concert of one of my favorite Broadway performers of all time, Idina Menzel at the MOA Arena. I really didn't miss it for the world and I swear it was one of the best experiences that I've had as an enthusiast and a performer! I can't wait to share this experience to you guys soon!

Bonding with my cute little pup, Drizzle - After a year of not having a pet, I'm so happy that my parents allowed me to adopt a cute little pup from our neighbor. They can't afford to feed and take care of so many furry little creatures at home, so I pleaded my parents to take care good care of the dog. It's her 2nd month with us, and she's starting to grow big!!

Performed "Part of Your World" & "Defying Gravity" - Last Friday, I was asked by my theatre mentor to launch the Saturday workshops of our musical theatre organization in my high school alma mater. It was such a fulfilling moment for me to perform in front of the pre-school-high school students, and they didn't disappoint me because they sang with me in some parts of my performance! 

Retail Therapy - I've been feeling a little bit out of sorts lately, and I also needed new wardrobe pieces in preparation for employment. 

Casual Days - Lately, I've been feeling so lazy to dress up. I'm starting to fall in love with stylish casual pieces and I've been using this pair of white laced shoes from Payless because they're so versatile and comfy!!

I wish I could share everything on my mind right now, but I'm really busy catching up with stuff lately. Anyway, have a lovely week loves!! <3